There are only 2 inevitable things in life: Death and Deadlines.

Everyone has their own reaction to the stress of an upcoming deadline. The most common response, for me and for

many people, is procrastination. We all have our experiences of ignoring the task we were assigned up to the very

last moment, where all hell breaks loose. 

I've heard people call their relationship with deadlines the "Panic Monster". They would have weekly meetings

with the creature, using the adrenaline, turning on their fight or flight response to finish whatever they had to do. I,

personally, wouldn't dare be so romantic about it. 

Deadlines are an active detriment to my daily life. For some reason, I just can't relax at all when there is some kind

of task on my mind. I either have to enter full denial mode and forget about my duties or force myself to be stressed

until my body finally decides to be productive. Of course, these solutions aren't elegant nor healthy. The former is

just plain ignorant and lazy and the later makes me feel like a soulless husk.



And today, I woke up yet again, remembering that I was supposed to stay up late to finish my deadlines. It's not

uncommon for me to deem the time when everyone sleeps as the perfect moment for me to be productive, just to

give in to exhaustion that very night. 

What I have on my mind right now isn't simply schoolwork. I also have plans to improve my own life, desires to

finish personal projects and many other unfinished tasks that have been left to rot away inside of my Notes App. 

It's easy to be pessimistic about all of it, thinking yourself stuck in a vicious cycle of trying to be productive and

resting anxiously. But it's crucial to look back at your progress and see that you have actually moved forward, even

if it's baby steps, even if it's only mentally, even if it's not up to the standards that society requires. 

I'm sitting here, writing this blog at the beginning of the day, not filled with any particular positive emotions, just

relief, a neutral, normal sense of relief. As dull as that sounds, these are the moments that I fight for everyday, that

sweet sensation of freedom and peace of mind.

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